SELF-AWAREness

Everyone has issues. Thats what i think(may not be true though). But i would like to think i have managed most of my issues. I know myself best. I would disagree wif anyone who says he/she knows me better than me myself. I use to dislike alot of things about myself like my figure and all, i had self- esteem issues. But i guess now i no longer have that. I am very confident bout myself now. To me, what i think of myself is what matters to me 99% of the time. Sometimes others mistook it for ego. But to me, i couldn't be bothered. I make my own self. I am my own person. What i think is what i am.What u see of me is what u get. If anyone is not happy with me its up to them to worry bout and none of my business to be bothered. To me, as long as i am happy with myself i shouldn't be bothered with what others think. Cause everyone has his or her different way of thinking and therefore, what i think may differ from them and vice versa. I know sometimes people think i live in my own world, DELUSIONAL. Cause in my 'world' only what i think matters. And so be it. I'll just live my way. heeeeeeeeeee..............

Anger Management

Anger, it is some irrational emotion that makes someone unhappy and lose control over his or herself making that person very unpredictable and possibly violent. That is why i never i wanna be angry ever again. I'm not the same person when i get angry.The things that i hold dear to me are just some entity when i gets angry they no longer means a thing to me and when i'm damn pissed they might just be harmed as a result o me having to take my anger out on them. I was an angry person. I never was happy about everything me, myself and I. I had issues. I was frustrated with everything. Once, for some reason i was damn pissed off with the way that people have been treating me i blow my top off. I felt really bad. I know what i doing wasn't gonna do me good but, i just couldn't help it. I seem to spout vulgarities as these same very words aggravate me even more.I just couldn't help it. I really couldn't. I wish i could make it stop. But i was HELPLESS. As it continues, my victim would only chose to react and soon it seems violence was to start. IT was inevitable. soon it broke out in a fight and as in all fights started both of us ended in trouble. I was damn guilty. My conscience kept bugging me. I knew i was wrong but what else can i do. Until date my victim, my FRIEND would never be the same again. Unknowingly our relationship has been affected. We were never the same friends again. Then did i realise what anger is. It only has negative impact. It changes me totally for that period of time making me a different totally irrational and harmful person for that period of time harming those who are dear to me and my friends. And so today i vowed never to be angry again. i don't wanna be angry. it makes me unhappy and sort of dangerous. it makes me lose what i hold dear and it allows those things i never wanted to happen happens for that short period of time. That is why i found this SOLUTION to my anger issues.

My first blog

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