Negative emotions

I was once a fat guy. Someone who had very low self-confidence and self-esteem. I did not like how I look and how I behaved at times. Most of all, I can be easily bothered by what others think of me. I hated myself. I just needed a change so badly.I just needed to gain my self-esteem back. Therefore, set out to change. With myself as the only motivation and the goal in mind I worked hard dieting and exercising. It was hell as I needed discipline to continue on even when I was tired and all to keep on with my progress. Soon, I regained my figure and my confidence back. This enables to do a lot of things in my life. Things that i would not even think of when I am fat. This taught me a very important lesson in life. It is that is to believe in yourself and have confidence in oneself; for what u think of yourself is the only thing that matters.

SUCCESS!!!!

Success in life is different for everyone. It is defined as having achieve a goal or something in life. Therefore, this makes success different for everyone. Some may say success in life being the richest guy on earth or the hottest or even simply an achieved individual. However, i am a simple guy. In my point of view, true success in life is simply having true happy. Happiness may be a simple emotion that people say can be easily attain in everyday life. However, they can never say they have true happiness. True happiness to me is finally being satisfied of life and just enjoy living day to day. It is achieved when i finally am happy with myself, have all my loved ones by my side and am just happy to be living. This is my definition of success. It may be cheesy and all but sometimes the simplest thing in life is the hardest to get.

FEAR?????

It is true that fear is a natural feeling, something that cannot be helped or controlled. It is positive as it set boundaries to what people might do and make sure they do not do crazy irrational stuff. However, it is a negative feeling as it sets constraints for oneself and makes us be cautious and not just believe in ourselves. Therefore, being a normal human being, I did have my fears. One of them was being judge by others. I had always feared what others might think of me. What they would say to me, whether I was liked or not or whether I am being remembered and such was always a concern for me. As a result, I am always concerned of what I wear, how I behave and such. This therefore was a constraint for me. It deters me from being myself and doing what I always wanted. I have to constantly put up an act just to please others and to make sure I was being like. This was very wrong. I was being a fake. I was not myself: the real Ruslan. Luckily for me, this fear of mine never lasted long. As I grew up and matured, I gain more self-confidence and self-respect and I no longer was bothered of what others might think. I was more concerned for what I think and what I believe in. This therefore led to a saying I truly believe in that is what I think of myself is much more important than what others think.

What I See Myself in in the future?

Sometimes whom I would be in the future. Do i want to be a lawyer, doctor? A successful happy married family man with tons of kids? Or just a single unmarried kasanova bachelor? Well, after thinking for sometime i can finally see what i'm gonna do in future. Well, in the years to come, i would be studying in ngee ann poly excelling to the best of my potential. Then, i would graduate wif a good score and would answer to the call of duty. I hope to be in the commandos serving wif all the great man and having as high a rank as possible. After that, i was thinkning of signing on in NS if i were to have good pay to insure that my income is always good. While doing so, i would like to take a degree course part time and intending to end by the age of 27. Then i intend to start a business wif the knowledge i have and money collected while working. Not forgetting my social life, i intend to be married by the ageof 30 and settle down and have kids by the age of 40 while my business is hopefully doing well. And so hopeully thats how my life would be and thus retire by the age of like 60+ and have a good time enjoying the rest of my life.

i. What are 6 adjectives which best describe you? These can be from outside the list. Think about the evidence or your past experiences that support their accuracy.
1.Confidence – I love everything bout myself and am very confident of myself
2.Outspoken – I like to talk a lot
3.Optimistic – I always think of the bright side of life
4.Determined – When i have something in mind i go for it whole heartedly and make it a point to get it done and don’t give up no matter what.
5.Happy – Motto “Don’t Worry Be Happy”
6. Self-aware – I know who i am and assured of myself

ii. From the list of adjectives that you scored 3, identify the ones which you best like about yourself. Why are they important to you?
1.Confident, cause this way i won’t get hurt by what others say or think of me and that i would be happy and comfortable in my own skin.

2.Optimistic, cause i don’t like to see the bad side of things and get upset over it as i believe life isn’t worth living if i’m not happily enjoying everything bout it.

3.Tolerant, cause i would not get upset easily or bothered thus enjoying everything else.

iii. From the list of adjectives that you scored 0, write down the ones you would like to improve. How are you going to develop these characteristics?

Observant, i am as blur as sotong. Even though so, i would like to improve it by trying to be more aware of things try to be more OBSERVANT.

Public Self
This is what I share with others about me:I am friendly and outgoing. I like to meet new pple and make new frens.

Private Self
Think about how much of your private self you are willing to share. What are the benefits or drawbacks to sharing aspects of your private self?
There are layers of me. I have varying personality and traits depending with occasion. I can be sensitive and warm at times and on the other hand can be very crazy and irrational. Thats just me.

Refer to your Personal Inventory and write down 5 affirming statements that you can make about yourself?
I’m HOT
I’m HAPPY
I’m SMART
I’m HANDSOME
I’m A MAN

What are some of the limiting beliefs that you hold? Take a few minutes to reflect on the impact it has on your self-esteem, your relationships, and actions.
I sometimes have this idea that everything else is going against me that is why i always make it a point to work harder than others and outdo them. Thi s makes me feel too independent and sometimes make me feel that i’m alone and nobody knows me better than me myself and make me wanna grow stronger mentally and physically to face any challenges.

. Your Personal Inventory

We have positive (as well as negative) qualities but often do not take the time to identify them. Now take some time to think about how you see yourself in terms of your personality, character, how you relate to others, etc. Be as objective and realistic as possible.

Read the list of words below and score each as follows:

Almost never 0
Sometimes 1
Often 2
Almost Always 3

SELF-AWAREness

Everyone has issues. Thats what i think(may not be true though). But i would like to think i have managed most of my issues. I know myself best. I would disagree wif anyone who says he/she knows me better than me myself. I use to dislike alot of things about myself like my figure and all, i had self- esteem issues. But i guess now i no longer have that. I am very confident bout myself now. To me, what i think of myself is what matters to me 99% of the time. Sometimes others mistook it for ego. But to me, i couldn't be bothered. I make my own self. I am my own person. What i think is what i am.What u see of me is what u get. If anyone is not happy with me its up to them to worry bout and none of my business to be bothered. To me, as long as i am happy with myself i shouldn't be bothered with what others think. Cause everyone has his or her different way of thinking and therefore, what i think may differ from them and vice versa. I know sometimes people think i live in my own world, DELUSIONAL. Cause in my 'world' only what i think matters. And so be it. I'll just live my way. heeeeeeeeeee..............